Christmas christmas christmas.... my first christmas in Russia, Nizhny Novgorod... Well, this christmas, i realised one thing... quality time... that is the one thing that i want...
These 3 months, has been very tired for me. Most of the time, i m very blur and blank in my mind. Worrying lots of minor things, wondering around and distrurb others... and i m sorry for all the friends that i have annoyed and irritated.. SORRY...
I thought i have, well, found myself, but at times, i do feel so so so so so so so not me.... things are really different here. Not like the things that was in Malaysia.
Depress, i dun wanna have that kinda feeling. Even if it come to me, i will only myself to be sad for a while, the most is one week. Lol, i still can remember that the time i felt depress, well, i ate two bars of dark chocolate.. then i have to pay for the consequences.... not feeling well for the next day.. and i got some phobia wen i saw dark chocolate. Uhhh.. i can't believe that i will hurt myself this way just to get rid of that feeling that i don't like. T.T
Thank goodness, i got some distraction like going out to some other places to refresh myself. And right now, everything is fine.. because it is christmas..... ^u^
Lol. Haha.. Merry Christmas.... this christmas well, i do find joy in it... altough there is some little odd feeling inside me.... hehe.. but still.... there are still happiness... hahaha... ^^
These 3 months, has been very tired for me. Most of the time, i m very blur and blank in my mind. Worrying lots of minor things, wondering around and distrurb others... and i m sorry for all the friends that i have annoyed and irritated.. SORRY...
I thought i have, well, found myself, but at times, i do feel so so so so so so so not me.... things are really different here. Not like the things that was in Malaysia.
Depress, i dun wanna have that kinda feeling. Even if it come to me, i will only myself to be sad for a while, the most is one week. Lol, i still can remember that the time i felt depress, well, i ate two bars of dark chocolate.. then i have to pay for the consequences.... not feeling well for the next day.. and i got some phobia wen i saw dark chocolate. Uhhh.. i can't believe that i will hurt myself this way just to get rid of that feeling that i don't like. T.T
Thank goodness, i got some distraction like going out to some other places to refresh myself. And right now, everything is fine.. because it is christmas..... ^u^
Lol. Haha.. Merry Christmas.... this christmas well, i do find joy in it... altough there is some little odd feeling inside me.... hehe.. but still.... there are still happiness... hahaha... ^^
