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Showing posts with label thoughts. Show all posts
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Monday, May 2, 2011

Other random post

Life is never been easy, it always and never will be easy. But u can make it simple, not complicated, and does not fill with any urge of vengeance. People fight, argue and creates lots of problem when they just can't let it go. When u have a peaceful mind, u know that all this doesn't matter at all, in the end, it does not only hurt u, but it also hurt those who truly care for u. U will never know how much tears has been shed by them, how suffer are they just because of your silly actions.

I will always remember what my aunt told me; stay away from conflicts and gossip, it does not bring u anything but leads u to a direction blindly. I dun understand what she means, but as i was demanding for things and start arguing with my parents when i was in high school, i was filled with anger and i can't think properly. Until one day, when i saw how angry my brother was when he wanted something so badly, and yet my mom said no. He stood up and slam the door of his room which i can hear it from downstairs, and i realize something. I saw how heart broken is my mom's look, and my whole mind is like starting to work. I know, if my brother would listen to her, things might not turn out this way, my mom wouldn't be sad, my brother on the other hand can work out things right, and be more understanding, as there is always an alternative. This argument doesn't bring anything but lead to a route of sadness.

After that, i learn to control myself to never let anger control me, by telling myself, it will only lead me to a blind direction, but not a clear one which i may have a better option and choices for what is happening next. And i try using this concept of mine to apply it in my everyday life, so that i know, things can be simple and nothing bad could happen as i wouldn't involve myself to a problem which i created out of my foolishness. For that, i think i literally understands what my aunt was trying to tell me. If u get yourself involve in a conflict, try to solve it or never involve in it from the very beginning; never gossip as you might get influence and invading others privacy and thus sometimes u tend to think of that person as what is describe from what u heard and begin treating them badly even if u dun even know well about that person, and this, well, blindly leads u to a direction of conflict for no reason as u will stand for something that u dun have any prove but just base on what u heard. That is just plainly blind.

I understand that people have emotions that they can't control, so do i. That's why i always look for someone whom i trust to talk to when things gone so crazy for me. I need a guidance to help me, so that i can think clearly. The bible is a very good guidance, but i know i couldn't be bother reading it as i m really truly awfully a lazy girl. But, i will try to read it, as it really is a book of knowledge to me. =)




Friday, October 30, 2009

Internalllll....

Games of mine, is not fun anymore and i will just stop all the match making that i m playing all these while. I felt the tense and tiredness out of it. Nothing i can do about it, after feeling the guilt that runs within me. Its fun to see ur friends having their own partener and seeing others being together as a couple. But then i m wondering, if that is how couples are being together, then how does love come into that relationship? I have lots of question about this. To be honest, i think i don't really know the meaning of love, i mean i really don't know. How? And why does it happen, and how do u know u are in love? How how how how????? I really got lots of this question running in my head... But, i guess i ll just leave it behind because, i need to priortise my things. What is meant to be will be.
I believe that fate will lead the way. Guess that is the reason why, i dun feel like falling for anyone because there isnt a thing for me to fall for and its just too hard for me to find someone that i am willing to give in everything untill the right person came. Well, i guess i am the kind of person who seems so desprate for it, but deep inside i know that for me to be like the things that i dream of, its impossible. Really impossible. So that is why, it is just a dream, which are meant for sleeping.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Randomly.....

Well, i m back home rite now. So happy and so excited. This afternoon, i went to meet Singni and we both went to watch movie and spend most of our time chatting and wondering around... Oh, and we chatt something about our ideal partner.... Hahaha...... Curious rite??? But i noe u guys wun be that busy body.

Oh, i m kinda 'wu liao' cz wen i saw the piano displayed my imagination all flows out > thinking that if the guy i like confess his love to me by playing the piano just dedicate to me, i will be like so touch till............................................................................ My imagination stops rite here cz there is no such person, and i din have any admirer so i might as well just stop dreaming... Funny rite, i still cant stop imagine such kind of things that is usually imagine by little girls<< wake up Karen, you are almost 18 when April comes *sigh*